Soon

Time does not fix anything but does help you find a solution to your problems. Well, I haven't solved my problems but it has helped me reach a decision.

Take one day at a time. Appreciate what that day has to offer and continue living your life the way you want, so that each day can be more or less memorable. School is the most important now these coming three weeks and I hope everyone can understand that I will not be all that socialduring those weeks.

Right now, Love Secondhand Serenade


the wind is blowing weakly and softly caresses your skin
the sun is shining, providing warmth that reaches your heart
each day is a battle which you don't always win
each day is a new day, a day with a new start
....

MAY!!

I can't believe it but what is left of the entire IB is the exams, which will start this Monday!!! I'm getting so nervous.

to whats been going on.

Yesterday I went to Faktoriet and I was so glad to meet everyone again. Andreas, Robin B, Robin K, Lars, Erik etc.. I really enjoyed it surprisingly enough. And ofcourse it feels great to hear that I am good looking from not one but several of the guys there. Even if I can't quite believe it myself.

I have a dilemma to work through. What if you meet a guy which has told you that he and his girlfriend has broken up but in fact no one else knows about it and others are surprised when I or eg my cousin accidentally tell them, and then you have this other guy who is extremely sweet and makes you feel all bubbly and don't know what to do with yourself when you're around him. Who would you choose? Or more exactly what would you do.
And here's the thing I might go away to London around June 14 and be gone for about 6 months. Is it then really worth it putting yourself through this emotional mess?

Tell ya more later

XOXO

ALSACE

TOmorrow afternoon I'll be heading off to the airport with my family, and early on friday morning we will be jumping on the plane to Colmar and then get to Alsace where the actual orienteering will take place. More on this will come up after the trip. I CAN'T WAIT!

What else can I mention... hmm... oh yes I'm a bit concerned regarding working in London. I HOPE it will turn out the way I want it to work out, but I'' just have to wait and see.

AND Tomorrow will be the last day with lessons! After that I will have revision until May 4th. !

Have a great day everyone , It's raining here and cleaning the house and packing is not something that I would call fun.

XOXO

I can't wait....

I can't wait until I move to London! If I get one the jobs that I've applied for that is. It would be so awesome!

Now I have no more hand ins to the IB and only 6 days left with lessons and its 8 days until I'll go to Alsace to orienteer! I feel so relieved!

If I pass the exams in may as well as my driver's license and have time to go on the trip with the girls, this year will be the BEST YEAR EVER!!!

Today however when I got up I went for a one hour walk and when I came home I jogged about 4½ km. I love it! and tomorrow I'm going to get my phone back and hopefully it will work as it used to but the chances are LOW.

Hope your day has been as great as mine.

Everything is getting sorted out finally :D

XOXO

Another weekend

I have dreams that all. But will any of them come true? We use dreams as an escape from reality, but sometimes the dreams are so wonderful that we never want to leave them. I dream of getting away, being independent again, finding love, happiness and bliss. Just like some many other people in the world. But these dreams I've had as long as I can remember. I wasn't an outsider but I never felt like I belonged anywhere except now, still I don't want to be stuck in the past. Its fromt he past we learn so that we can deal with the obstacles we meet in the future.

Saturday, it's all about movies - Bedtime stories - twice! Had a guy I've never met before here watching it with me one of the times, chocking I know... NOT. Greys anatomy, Confessions of a shopaholic and Traffic were some other movies I've watched throughout the day.

Sunday I'll continue wishing that I'll get one of the jobs I've applied for, and watch Therese play handball and of course go to the gym with Nickilina:)

So long, and sleep tight and don't let the bedbugs bite

XOXO

I and Anna are inseparable <3

What a friday

My mind couldn't be more disorganized than it is right now. All the worries about getting a job after graduation, applying to universities, applying for visa, finding somewhere to live if I get in to the desired program, how I am supposed to afford it, getting a drivers licence, studying for exams and getting good grades at the exams. On top of that there are of course other emotional issues I have to take care of. Thankfully I have my way of dealing with the pressure; working out! :D

Right now it feels like I'm falling a little behind with the revision of my subjects but as long as I pass chemistry I'll do fine :D. Nothing can bring me down right now, not even the depressing snowy and windy weather. I know I haven't got the job or anything but I just feel so happy with actually getting a reply on my e-mail showing my interest.

I got to tell you, last weekend I visited my grand parents for 4 days. Quite relaxing actually. Spent some time with my cousins too. Anyway when I and Elin was there we decided to try on some of the clothes that we found in the closets. OMG how silly we looked in those oversized dresses, too small overall somethings and really old clothes. I haven't laughed that much for a really long time. My cousin is the best and the funniest I know. She really is!

I were supposed to go to Arena this weekend as I'm on the list and get free entrance, Star Pilots and Linda rosing among others are there. But I think I will stay home instead. It's not worth it I think. Need some sleep I think as I have the craziest dreams lately. The last dream I had was about some kind of contest in which those who won, they won stuffed animals, real animals I might add and they were realy, really happy about it as well. Weird I know.

Here is the last picture of me which on BDB, Facebook and myspace nowadays.
See ya

XOXO

Seriously, I never remember to write anything in my blog. Oh well, maybe I should aim at writing at least once a week. A weekly blog. :)

Anyway, Friday was both a disaster and great. I will most likely get a scar on my leg after being accidentally pushed and some very tense feeling between my best friends. Not good.

The rest of the weekend was way better, sleeping, watching my little brother play handball and since we had some trouble with the Tv and so on I have watched DVD's instead. DVD's I've watched before I might add. Indiana Jones, Hancock, Intolerable Cruelty, Ice Age (Yes I know it's a childrens movie but it doesn't change the fact that I like it)and American Dreams. Neither of them any good really, but that doesn't matter just wanted something to watch really.
The last thing ofcourse was working out(jogging, handball and the gym) with my family. My sister wants to go to the gym all the time now as there is some eye candy there, one guy in particular. I must admit that is one of the reasons I go there also(a).Haha


On monday however I started the day by watching Shrek 3. I know another childrens movie. :P, And when I got to school later that I day I was thrilled to hear that our TOK presentation wasn't due until wednesday. So today, Tuesday I have only one lesson; Psychology! How great isn't that? I start 9.30 and end 10.30!

Well that's what I've been up to lately and I better get to class pretty soon. The last thing I want to add is. Yesterday I realized that I am once again trying to go back to the past I'm trying to leave behind. But I have a lot of emotional baggage left and I feel that it is holding me back. Stopping me from taking chances, falling in love is one of those chances I havn't dared to take. So therefore I have decided to let it all go. Of course I'll keep the memories, after all it is the past experiences that has shaped who I am today. But I am heading towards the future, so I'm cutting off the strings. I will no longer be a puppet.

Have a nice day !

XOXO

Pictures will be uploaded soon, I promise;P